Tide Song
She writes her fears and crumples them up
wads missives to boats and bottles them up
fleeing that same sense of naught, where
I’m left just laying there
remembering the pain that we wrought
Some baseless joy
keeps dragging me back
winded by lust and I’m flat on my back
can’t help feel some sense of guilt
letting it wilt in the darkest
Woe, I know
one little nip will bring
elation, (restore from the top shelf
you’ll lust life like your old self)
though, don’t you know (oohs from BS)
our names are already in stone
they’re taunting
“Bastard
How do think this is gonna end?”
Barely budded memory
Fallen on the waves
Life lilts up its head towards
Whispering a myth in some dead language
Sigh like you feel that
somethings bout to end
Then nothing happens
it all just blends to
light and flame
nature erasing your fame
Who’s calling?
a future forgetting your name
Wake Up Blind
I move in that wondrous space
about to clutch your warm embrace
when your flame meets drops of rain
start to see your face but then
I wake up blind again
Darkness from the light descends
and will not let my savior in
the new moon holds an unphased face
when day is night, and night is day
when your face drips blots of paint
the mourning world comes roaring in
and I wake up blind again
Fading friend
my thoughts want their passage out
muttered words in muted braille
darker than silk
I wanna be milked
Tempted, she plucked, she ate
our paradise disintegrates
dusk drapes the veil of the night
and blindness sweeps from left to right
I shudder, tossed awake in dread
then like the king
I’ve lost my head
as my sight fades with the night
the dawn choir trills its dusky din
and I wake up blind again
It’s Been So Long Since Yesterday
White feathers litter the ground
next to a capo to change the key
next time you come around
But the dust is starting to settle
and the fool burned a hole through the kettle
I can no longer smell your perfume
It’s been so long
since you sat there
and had nothing to say
it’s been so long
since yesterday
A sudden break in the rain
caught me waiting for grace
your spotlight engulfed me
like a moth drawn to flame
It’s been so long
since you held me
and whispered in my ear
“hold me dear”
and never ever
let my memory go
But I didn’t know how fleeting
how passion turns to kneeling
how, like a thief, you wait till I sleep
and sneak out my door
and it shook me to the core
white feathers and capo
knocked to the floor
holding my head in my hands
a look of disbelief
calling all my enemies
denial, anger, bargaining
come finish me
if you don’t return
I’m starting to forget
the turn in your lips
the swell of your hips
the sway of your body
as it occupied this space
and I tried, like hell,
to keep my eyes on your face
Still you left me
here waiting
with your muzak in my ears
longing so long
that the summer clouds
have all turned gray
Yeah it’s been so long since
since I said something wrong
what it was, I cannot say
it’s been so long since yesterday
No Man’s Land
Well, I’ve been looking
but it’s not working
no one will shake my hand
I’ve been lurking
in shadows shirking
the bear trap and its pain
I will build with boat
I will build my army
I will take my stand
in no man’s land
Who dared command it
first bliss then panic
the old default always jerks me back
denial falters
awake at alters
presided by the reaper and his clan
Follow next breath out
sweep out any doubt
I will plant my hands
in no man’s land
I’ve been flailing
in useless wailing
my cries just come out sounding like a lamb’s
but I’m not playing
with village raising
they’ll know the words I speak like back of hand
Throw that gauntlet down
set ablaze this town
cut out my arm brand
prove that I’m your man
in no man’s land
Again and Again
Put me up in the clouds
right above
my thought burst
Let me hover
let me discover
with no eyes
what I could never see
when I was alive
Let me linger
in blue sky above
without the blinding eyes from
when I was alive
Let me be reborn as a girl
let me focus on the clay
and the minute world
but this time
let me stay that way
Let me dwell in darkness
let me cease to be
so no remnant of my fortune
or misdeeds will there be
let me vanish from all being
never coming back
let this be the last heartbreak I feel
and let this be my final heart attack
I guess I’ll have another round
I’m captured in a moment
captured in some light
a form is forming
let it be delight
let joy be name
or let me go back to
from where I came
All my fingers wanna play
is muscle memory
all my lips what to spout is cliche
and all day long mind dwells upon
how I lost face
again and again and again and again and again and again and again
today
Again and again and again and again and again and again and again
can’t break out these norms
cause when you are reborn
you’re born into the same tired forms
oh, human form divine
why would i make you mine
yoke with burning drives
when I was alive
Let the red curtain drop
on this old grey top
let the rainbow break
that old earthquake
let it sate and sustain
so that we can all remain
dancing and singing out our pain
Path to Judgment Day
Wasted all my time
on liquor and rhyme
and therefore, my brother
I can't help myself
ain’t there a dime
you can roll my way?
to help me down
the path to judgment day
Don't shake your head
and don't play deaf
let sink in my stutter
your heart that's pathos proof
I'll take any help you can cast my way
to get me down
the path to judgment day
I’m just waiting for my water to break
to extinguish the stake
for the tether to shake
for the shepherd to quake
for the bedrock to flake
redeeming the rake
for striking the snake
so its poison will take
this longing
I’m just waiting for the will to be free
lift me up from my knees
jailer drop me the keys
for the word from the breeze
coast is clear from the trees
for usurper to seize
for the river to freeze
stop the knocking of knees
of this heartbeat
My oh my date book has grown covered with age
got battered with rage
glue dropping the page
smudged blackened with sage
a cliche of its age
plants war til it’s waged
scars black into beige
that neuters and spays
ambition assuage
as I noticed the stage
bit part in a cage
earned me minimum wage
in a blink, middle age yet
it keep writing my name
down on every page
I lost faith that someone would save
wipe my debts with a wave
pull me out of the grave
so why am I
still praying?
It’s foretold there’s a lover to be
and she’s looking for me
cut me down from the tree
trade my pipe for a reed
tuck me into this setting
as she bends down
to make a dog-ear
of the page
Go on and stomp
my soul-less shoes
but here go you my brother
but by the chance of god
the storms of time
cast me every which way
but always bring me back
on the path to the judgment day
they always bring me back
on the path to judgment day
Blood brothers
I’m olden, I’m moldin’ in my shell
I’m burning, never learnin from this hell
and all its boobie traps
with no life to spare
I gnaw my way out of the snare
then feel some new meat caressing my hand
and I’m falling again, like the fool that I am
I turn in, quell the yearning to be more
drop a quarter in the bardo, and I’m reborn
a hungry ghost again
there ain’t no satiation
for this stream of constant craving, say
ain’t no “leap of faith after reflection”
like some learned man
but a fool’s what I am
You took my pocket knife
and crossed out your palm
I did the same and it wasn’t too long
before we were brothers
brothers from different mothers
but who’s to say
what other hearts our fathers have wronged
Your eyes look like mine
and they seem so kind
alter all into a paradise
draining the poison from mine
Extinguish my thinking
entwining our hands, you walk with me
a fable in footprints
cold infinite sand
this time
we’ll waste time together
But we are pulled like a vortex
sucked into the past
all that ever was cannot last
and everything I ever loved
turned to ashes then turned to mud
and all that mud clenched in my hand
brought back to the surface
bad blood again
this time there's no time
stigmata incensing my mind