Horses In The Sky
Horses in the sky
Will have to do our living
After we die
Old friend
This is the end
See the seal broke
By lamb
Righting all the wrongs
That have passed since Abraham
Old friend
This is the end
And the martyrs want revenge
For the world to be killed
As they themselves had been
O friends
There ain’t no friend
Said the little lamb to the shepherd boy
Can’t you hear
Can’t you hear
Can’t you hear
Angelic trumpets that are blown
And the unanswered question
Is breaking our bones
Old friend
This is the end
See the seal broke
By lamb
Righting all the wrongs
That have passed since Abraham
Old friend
This is the end
Said the little lamb to the mighty king
Can’t you hear
Can’t you hear
Can’t you hear
Can’t you hear me crying
Can’t you hear me
Can’t you hear
Can’t you hear
Can’t you hear
Can’t you hear me crying
Can’t you hear me crying
A Little At A Time
I’ve been looking towards the heavens
leg across the fence
falling like a feather
caught up in the wind
but I can’t wait forever for you to
give me a sign
so for now I’ll hold my breath
a little at a time.
Sucked into surrender
with the dropping of a jaw
I want your words to render
like scarecrows crave the Caw
I could fall to pieces
and burn up in your shine
but for now I’ll hold my breath
a little at a time
but for now I’ll hold my breath
a little at a time
If I had a million days
I’d dig up my graves
If I had a thousand years
I’d drown all my fears
and if any of it was mine
I’d give you my time
but these questions keep burning
a hole in my mind.
Broken by believing
when lover’s words betray
I’m longing for your presence or
salvation in the grave
I could search forever
for a love that’s like mine
but for now I’ll hold my breath
a little at a time
but for now I’ll hold my breath
a little at a time.
Cruel God
This old God so cruel
filled the world with harm
and put me in a plane crash
instead of in your arms
Fake
Fate
Fade
Sinking down to heaven
swimming like a stone
find my spirit singing
deep inside your bones
Fake
Fate
Fade
Breath growing cold
as it flows into night
red to
black and
black
to white.
A million Brahmas dreaming
forever and a year
can’t help but birth our lips back
together my dear
Fake
Fate
Fade
I may be a donkey
you might be a fly
I’m happy that your drinking
the tear drop from my eye
Fake
Fate
Fade
Breath growing cold
as it flows into night
red to black
and black
to white.
Born to Cry
There’s a pain in my soul
That makes my thoughts cold
and I feel like an ice age has
covered the world
as Winter’s death ends
and Spring’s rolling in
I feel like joy
will never bloom again
fading out
fading in
fading out
I kiss the dead forehead
kiss the dead’s lips like I
kiss the new life between your hips
Oh little new baby,
you scream and I sigh
You’re just like me, born to cry
you’re just like me, born to cry.
It ain’t fun to fall
but ain’t it wonderful
still I wonder why I held on
Can’t escape from you
if I wanna know the truth
still I fall asleep dreaming of hell
to hear you yell
you let me down
with “Oh well”
It’s the same old trauma
since time began
a friend is someone
who’s gonna do you in
and all of those people you
wrongfully fear
just seem so narrow from
holding you near
baleen mouths
bailing tears
I’m bailing out.
I stumble through morning
breaking new brick
fall flat on my back with the
mire and twig
blinking towards heaven gray
clouds in the sky
You’re just like me, born to cry
You’re just like me, born to cry
I Don’t Wanna Die
Lord, please tell me why
I don’t want to die
Tell me it’s a lie
I don’t want to die
It seems so absurd
You don’t say a word
Gotta fall before I fly
And to live I gotta die
Blue Wing, nothing
But Earth making
Waves with the wind
Red Tide
Starting to ebb
Is there any word
That you’ve ever heard
To shrieks just sound like tweets
Do cries just sound like sighs?
Blue Wing, nothing
But Earth making
Waves with the wind
Red Tide
Starting to ebb
It Won’t Die
Hurting in the morning as the
stars fade into light
my heart keeps pining for delight
and I’ve tried so hard to kill it
to drown it in booze and guilt
but it keeps beating against my will.
Filled my words with jealousy
Killed inspiration with depravity
Shut down my heart with booze and
women’s lies
but it won’t die
it won’t die.
God keeps a Satan in my face
by putting up mirrors every place
and my clothes the stink of bar rooms
my beard wreaks of cheap perfume
as sideburns try to choke away my pride
Can’t shave the hurt and grief
Can’t comb my disbelief into
a love of emptiness my heart won’t buy
but it won’t die
it won’t die.
Something keeps it beating in my chest
Something keeps it beating against my rest.
I tried to coax it to love cold steel
and to flutter at the green of a dollar bill
to long for its destruction
to lust for life’s abduction
to beat like a robot’s tortured breast.
Choked it with redundance
drowned it in abundance
licked my lips at hate and
gagged upon pure love divine
but it won’t die
it won’t die.
I’m Gonna Miss Me When I’m Gone
Take the whitewash to the mark
Take the fern frond to the trace
Like darkness to the mind
The last one to recall your face
It’s a falling in the end
From the pettiness of friends
Who won’t even speak your name
‘less that speaking brings them fame
But I’m gonna miss me when I’m gone
I’m gonna miss me when I’m gone
When the seagull steals my tongue
I’m gonna miss me when I’m gone
To live inside these eyes
Is to live in paradise
And the breaking of your bones
Makes them finally your own
When all I used to be
Is out drowning in the sea
And the thoughts inside my mind
Are out drifting in the pines
I’m gonna miss me when I’m gone
I’m gonna miss me when I’m gone
When my ladder’s out of rung
I’m gonna miss me when I’m gone
I’m gonna miss me when I’m gone
I’m gonna miss me when I’m gone
When the seagull steals my tongue
I’m gonna miss those songs I song.
I Hope There’s A Heaven
Someone once said that religion is drug
we take it when we need to
get through life’s drudge
and the worse off our lot,
the greater above, that it
keeps us asleep with a vision of God
But so many poor folk drifted this way
to live and to die without
much more than faith, and it’s
too cruel a world, if it’s all in vain
to die into nothing
from this world of pain.
I hope there’s a heaven for
all who believed
and cried out for mercy when they
fell to their knees
and all that they had was the
friendship of God
I hope there’s a heaven
to steal them from sod
I hope there’s a heaven
for the poor houses’ haunt and the
soldiers who died believing that they
did what god wants
for the bums in the church lines
starving and cold
missionary victims who bought
soup with their souls.
So many pained eyes that
bowed to his light
and prayed to his love
all day and all night
the meek and the poor
the victims of greed
that lived every breath by Jesus’ creed.
Well I hope there’s a heaven
for the slaves in the field
with broken down bodies,
hoping heaven would heal
the pains of this world and the
toils of their lives
I hope there’s a heaven for the
way that they died.
Ball And Chain
Hey Ma’am, take that hammer there
and break my ball and chain
lying by your riverside
my heat is drown with rain
I’ll fill your lap
with gold
and dreams that don’t grow cold
I’ve seen my life
shine
deep inside your eyes
cold inside your eyes.
Please ease my disbelief
so much time has passed
cast out from the will to live
my feet have turned to glass
I’d crawl for miles through tears
and burn up thirty years
you let me die tonight
deep inside your eyes
cold inside your eyes.
Forever
See the chicken, cluckin’ in the field
duckin’ in the bush, eatin’ corn meal
what becomes of him is
what becomes of others
‘cause like the days of summer,
his days are numbered
Death will come and
smote him with his thumb
it will be to him like he has never been
they’ll take away his beak and
they’ll take away his feathers
and he’ll be gone forever.
Hear that fool, whimper in the mirror
lips all a-quiver, mind is a blizzard.
the gravity of naught
turns his thoughts to glory
‘cause momento mori is
the moral of his story
Mort’s gonna come and
take away his tongue
take away his schemes
like waking takes a dream
they’ll dole out all his things
to the heirs of his fetters
and he’ll be gone forever.
Almighty Death must be laid to rest
his bones and cloak under nails and oak
if all has got to end
then ending’s got to end
He can reap his own seeds he’s sown
‘cause Science will come and
smote him with its thumb
it will be to them like he has never been
they’ll take away his scythe and they’ll laugh away his specter
and he’ll be gone forever
He’ll be gone forever
but we’ll be gone
forever.
Peg Leg
Please believe
if these legs weren’t pegs
I’d carry you.
If youthful days
weren’t in the grave
I’d carry you, and bury you.
Ghost, it has become
and just like you said
it’s done
breath turning the page
rattles like clocks
tilling with toil
til even your soil
fades away
The wax and wane
of joy and pain
have bound me here
The smirk and sigh
of shame and pride
have bound me here
to drown in drear
weight (wait), you have been shrewd
in keeping me here
with you
but time isn’t a lie
though new age books
get you to come
and fill you with fake
that your cares
rattle away
One falling story
pain bathed in glory
and dawn
greets you weary
face
faded memory
and it fades away
as you fade away
you fade away.
